M O V E O N !

I'm never hope like this before , really !
Actually , I still in love with him , I can't stop waiting for his coming.
I still can waiting , although already waiting since 7 years ago.
15th years old , teach me everything.
include teach me how to be more mature , how to be honest , how to be a loyal person , how to be patient , and how to be a kind girlfriend.
BUT , 15th teach me how to be strong , how to be hurts by someone that I really loved , how to feel dissapointed , etc.
Day by day left. .
I always pray to God ,
if my ex really2 for me , please sent he back to me and be my future husband.
BUT , if he's not for me , please open my heart to let he go with the right one & please give me another person who won't hurt me like what I feeling before.
Amen.
Already pray for 3 days , and God hear my praise & my pray !
when I arrived at my beloved Church (alone , cause my friend still busy with her course) , I met someone that really make me shocked !
this is not the first time I met my ex boyfriend friends.
They're still remember with me , they're very friendly , we never met again since I moved to another Church.
U know , I just want to cry !
even I smile with them , but my hurt feel so hurt. .
I said to my heart :
" why I must met them , not  my ex ? why God , WHY ? Could we met again after he break all my hope , all my love ? I feel so disappointed " .
I sent my sister a SMS , then she said :
" can u lil bit say thanks to God ? remember , u're so lucky , cause u're not alone in Church now. At least they make u know more about God too , not just your ex who introduce God to u !"
That sentences feel liked open my eyes bigger , open my heart bigger than before.
I reply :
" I still hope that I can meet him today , really. "
But my sister want me to know about the fact .
" HEY , You're in Church , but why u still hope someone meet with u right now ? how about God ? put God first ! "
Okay , I know if she didn't want me hurt God's heart.
Since that , I feel like wake up from my nightmare !
I'm sorry Lord if I always hurt Your heart :(
Now , I don't want make Jesus heart sad again.
So , I came to the altarcall I pray there , crying there , and feel God hugs. .
He know what I feel , He's my BEST FATHER EVER !
Then , I go home . .
I feel like there's no problem again , now I can move on , now I know that I found the right one but not in the right time.
Lord , I feel free now ..
Finally , I can let him go , IF I LOVE U , I MUST LET U GO. .